As I said earlier I was suppose to go out tonight, that didn't happen. Came home from work exhausted and with a wicked headache. Ate dinner and sat on the couch and fell asleep. That headache is still here and I'm awake sitting here feeling sorry for myself.
I watached some of 20/20 tonight about weight loss, people who have lost over 100 pounds and those who have lost and gained. Welcome to that club! It made me think though, why do some of us work and work at losing weight, do so and are so happy with ourselves only to put it all back on and more in some cases? Why are others so successful at keeping it off?
I don't know why I'm one of those that keep fighting, losing, gaining and repeating the cycle. I read all these other people's blogs about losing weight and I relate to them. I'm desperate.....I mean really desperate. The more I try to get myself in the zone the more I crave sweets, am so damn tired, so damn down that I can't shake it!
Tomorrow I am going to have my 2 hr sugar test done, not looking forward to it. I freaking hate needles....getting one gives me heart palpatations never mind having one, drinking this freaking icky sugary drink then having another blood test in two hours! It sucks!!!! After that I am going to look into purchsing a polar heart monitor/calorie burner type watch. This way when I work out next week, I can see how many calories I've burnt off.
Ok I am going to try to get some sleep, shake off this headache and try to get my head in a better place.
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